I WILL PREVIVE [The Book Of Rocks] diary extract, 11 December 2016


“I think this is the third fag in a hand I’ve drawn recently. I don’t know why I do it since I’ve never even smoked one. Honest to God. Dad used some highly effective reverse psychology on me in those teenage years, when a girl is easily influenced, and surprisingly it worked. (I obviously can’t say the same for wine!) Bizarrely I find it quite attractive to look at on other people sometimes and I can still remember those English days of my clothes stinking of stale smoke in the morning to remind me of my night out. No delayed reaction applied for the time I spent in France – the bars would be blanketed in a thick fog of smoke hanging at eye level. Quelle horreur!

I think it’s actually a metaphor for needing to dig deeper when the going gets tough, to get my tough to get going. I’m still feeling good physically which is so, so nice but lordy lord, this week is the full blown party week and while I love a party (I’ve said this before) this time of year does send me into a spiralling meltdown (I’ve said this before). It’s looming on the horizon. One party down, four to go.

So I don’t feel bad about the hairdresser taking four hours to work some 10 years younger magic on me (no, that does not make me 19.) I need all the help I can get right now. Anyway, where was I? The Berlin chit-chat took me to another “blonde”, French actress, Mélanie Laurent, who plays kickass Shoshanna Dreyfus in Tarantino’s Inglourious Basterds, the German war film. She is utterly formidable in her plot to take down the Nazi leaders so gimme some of those same balls please and I’ll make it to Christmas in one piece.

Today’s Sunday sesh is I Like What You Are Doing Nightriders Remix by Cassian.”